To protect my child, I can’t say much, but yesterday was a game changer. 

Parenting a child with deep deep wounds is the HARDEST thing I have ever done. 

There is no turning back and now we have to make choices that I don’t want to do. 

I wish love and prayers were enough to make it better.  

Yesterday didn’t surprise God. And when I really think about it, I’m not surprised either. I just thought we would have more time before it escalated to this behavior. 

I am so weary, but when I am weak, Jesus is my strength. I want him so much more. Not to fix my life or this situation, but to give me strength and wisdom in ways I’ve never had it before. 

God’s grace is meeting me here in the midst of hard. I had a friend sit with me in the ER, countless friends ready and waiting to help and  last night I had no pain in sleeping (from my Lyme’s) and it has been over six months. His mercies are new every morning and I’m going to cling to that. 

I know Jesus is writing a beautiful story and right now I am praying that redemption is the theme for my child. 

Would you pray that too?