This past week’s sermon was on a praying life which is something that I desire more and more.  I was reminded that I don’t need to have it all together or that I am eloquent, but rather make it an ongoing conversation with my heavenly father with planned and spontaneous times.

I was challenged to actually get out of bed and have some time with Jesus to start my day.  I usually set my alarm for 6:30 am and pray, read my bible on my phone, fall back asleep, wake up, pray etc until 7 am. No one usually bothers me because they think I am still sleeping.

Today I got up and got ready because I know if I walk over and sit in my chair, I will still fall back asleep.  I need to shower and have breakfast.  At 8:30 am, I had fed the kids and they were playing downstairs.  I thought I could sneak away for just 10-15 minutes.

I sat down in my cozy green chair in the corner of my room, took a deep breath and opened my bible to the Psalms.  No lie, not even 30 seconds later, Silas starts screaming at the top of his lungs for me. I chuckled to myself and thought, “Oh boy, this isn’t the best start.  I thought my time was supposed to be uninterrupted.”  He comes barging in my room to ask a question he knew the answer to.  I shoo him out of the room.

Deep breath, take two.

Maybe a minute later, Max waltzes into my room wanting to start his math.  I shoo him out of the room.

The dog starts barking like a crazy animal at the squirrels in our yard.

I hear kids bickering downstairs.

Max comes back into the room with his big brown eyes begging to start his math with him.

I ask him if he wants to snuggle a few minutes with his mommy while I get my heart happy in Jesus.  He nodded his head and we sat together for a few minutes.

I laughed. God knew this would happen.  It didn’t surprise him.  I did have a few minutes of quiet and I think he was pleased at my feeble attempts.  Someday this will be a distant memory and I will have an empty house and all the quiet time I would like.  Today I am going to be grateful for the grace that God has given me to live life in the here and now.  There is no perfect way to pray for which I am thankful.  God says  come as you are and that is enough.