Adoption Classes

We just completed the next step in our adoption which was to attend two days of classes. 
Was it helpful?  Over all I would say yes but there were aspects that I thought could have been extremely better.  I know we made some great connections with other families who are in the same place we are right now and I am looking forward to their friendships continuing in the future.
One thing that I took home was the fact that we are now a minority family.  We are not a caucasian family but a transracial family from here on out. We will look and act different than what we were before.   This is something that my extended family with have to deal with too.  But I want to stress that whenever you add a member to your family…you create a new family identity. 
The paperwork is going to ….stink!  I wanted to use another word to describe it, but refrained myself. My life has never been so completely invaded by complete strangers in my life.  Questions up the wazoo with the never ending…”what is your philosophy…”  and a stranger is going to be able to meet us twice and come into our home once and decide if we would make good adoptive parents.  (I completely understand why they have to do it, but the process just takes so long that it is frustrating.)
I am so looking forward to the day when I can meet our children…my heart longs for them, but God is calling me to a long season of patience endurance and it is going to be well worth the wait.
I have paper over load because I think we took home a whole tree of paper!
Good night!

Big Bummer!

We just found out that the potential lead on buying our house just put an offer in on a different home down the street.  Bummer!  It would be such a relief to have that chapter closed.  In the grand scheme of life, this is a small matter.  I trust that our home will sell and the right people haven’t seen it yet. I have been praying for it to be a godly family to be a light to the neighborhood.
For now I am standing on firm ground that God did call us to move to St. Cloud and He has much bigger plans for our family than we can ever expect.  Beth Moore said in one of her bible studies that God’s dreams for our lives are so much grander that we can think of .  (and I am a big day dreamer!)  So even with our house not selling, I am believing the promises of God.

Honey do list…

We completed the WHOLE “honey do list” this weekend.  I cannot believe it!  and there were some big projects on there too!  (fix the skylight so it wouldn’t be a vent for all of our heat to escape this winter.  Caulk around the kitchen floor because the installer did a pretty poor job, completed the sound booth, mud and taped the bathroom ceiling, changed thermostats, and many small little things that never get done.)  I even took a picture of Carl with everything checked off!
Now we could not have done without my mom coming and playing with the girls, running to Menards for us, and holding my hand while I broke two screws trying to put up safety latches under the sink.  (she broke two also…so we improvised with a few nails.)  So, thank you mom for everything.  A girl still needs her mom no matter how old she is!

Cookies and adoption

I let all three of them sit on the counter while we made cookies.  Let’s just say they were very happy!
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Grace has been my little saver recently.  She wanted to have a piggy bank so we could save our money for the adoption. Even when we are out shopping, she will continually remind me (especially when are in a store that she doesn’t care for) that we should save our money instead of spending it.  
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Lydia brought me this picture last week and explained that Carl and I are on the left and our two adoption children are on the right.  (notice that they are two girls:) I don’t know if that is what she is secretly praying for or not.
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Story behind the flashback…

A few of you wanted to know the story behind this flashback friday.  I wrote a letter to my girls right after I shaved my head.  I will share it with you now.

July 23, 2007

My Dearest Girls,
I wanted to write to you while this is still fresh and God fingerprints are still anew in my mind. One week ago Sunday I had the privilege of having Lauren Ellwein shave my head. She is currently undergoing chemo treatments for Ewing’s sarcoma.(A type of bone cancer found in her pelvic bone.)
About 3 months ago we were all driving home from Nana and Papa’s house, when I leaned over and told your Dad that I had a feeling that someday I would shave my head. I felt the Lord was preparing me in advance for something that I was going to do. He said that I would look cute bald. I thought maybe I would have cancer, or one of you or someone very close to me and then I would shave my head. Timing was a mystery to me but I thought it would be something in the far off future.
Little did I know that God had a different plan for me. Just over a month ago, Lauren was diagnosed. I gave it a little thought but then let it pass my mind. One night while I was praying and reading God’s word the Shama came to mind. “Love the Lord while all your heart, mind and strength and love your neighbor as yourself.” I would shave my head in an instant for one of you, now would I do it literally for a neighbor girl? It was a done deal in my mind. I talked to Lauren’s mom and then called her in the hospital and asked if we could shave our heads together. She giggled and thought it would be fun.
I learned while she was shaving my head that she wanted to be a hair dresser. So I was her first official client. Pretty easy cut – don’t you think? We video taped it and Nana watched via Ichat. Daddy was in Omaha that weekend so he saw me the next morning.
All the firsts were crazy! The first time you wash your hair and put conditioner in out of habit. Or the first time you lay down on a pillow…it feels really weird. But it nothing compared to what Lauren is going through right now. We went to the mall together to look for hats. People look. But that is just because we are different.
I am praying for a miracle for Lauren. I want to see her walk down her wedding isle someday and have her send me Christmas cards of her growing family. God has a special plan for her life just as he has for yours. He knows the number of our days before one of them comes to be. He knows the number of hairs on our heads. I put my trust and hope in Jesus – The Way, The Truth and The Life!
My prayer is that my life will point you closer to God. I want to be the best example of Christ for you. I love all three of you more and more everyday.
I am doing exactly what God has called me to do…be your mommy!
I love each one of you more than you will ever know!
-Mom